Episode 183

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1st May 2021

3 Songs, Gypsy Woman, Endless Rain, Even If I Wanted To, By Bruce Hilliard

I’ve played 16 gigs this year and it’s only May first. Not bad for a pandammit year 2021.

Last week’s episode featured a few of my songs and got such a warm response I decided to talk to the music director here at Better Each Day Music and suggest we play a few more.

Two of today’s selections are actually throw-aways--songs I didn’t publish until today. The third song is Even If I Wanted To. I thought it was to long but I listened to it last night and it aged well. It’s about sticking to commitments in relationships. Something that hopefully is making a comeback.


The second song, Endless Rain, was written in 1993 and originally recorded early 1994. It was my Nostradamus prediction of the unfortunate but not accidental death of the iconic Kurt Cobain from my hometown Aberdeen WA...where it rains over twice the amount the US average. Metaphorical dark weather that seems inescapable sometimes.


The first song, Gypsy Woman, was written about a year and a half ago when I heard the news my childhood best friend passed away. I got the phone call from my junior high sweetheart and several thoughts flashed through my head.


Memories of not only my friend but of her and where all the time goes. Gypsy Woman. There’s nothing “gypsy” about her. Only the moment seemed surreal. So here we go, Gypsy Woman, Endless Rain and Even If I Wanted To.



Gypsy Woman


Got a call I didn’t want to hear

Said a brother disappeared

Silence echoed in my ears

We hadn’t talked in many years

Somehow it added to the tears

Somehow it made me realize


Gypsy woman,  coming by surprise

Took me by the heart, shimmer in her eyes

Gypsy woman, sweeter than wine

Oh, cast your spell ‘til the end of time


The sweetest flower when it blooms

The kindest voice, the saddest news

The sweetest kiss, the kiss goodbye

The finest times I ever knew

Were all the times I spent with you

I sit alone and wonder why


The hourglass goes ticking by 

Dark shadows in the afternoon

The riddle no one can explain

The end is closer than you think

Time flies by in teary blink

Again, I sit and wonder why


Gypsy woman,  coming by surprise

Took me by the heart, shimmer in her eyes

Gypsy woman, sweeter than wine

Oh, cast your spell ‘til the end of time



Endless Rain


The tide is changing, comes and goes

So what's the meaning no one knows 

The moon’s suspended from a string

The world is spinning round and round

I found myself in the lost and found

In a nightgown borrowed from the King

September came and with it endless rain 

I heard a distant train whistle echo in the night 

Writers write and fighters fight 

And mothers sigh and sanctify a lullaby 

For the sleepy eye of a hurricane


And so I hanged myself from gallows borrowed

Drowned myself in pain 

And I'll never live to see tomorrow 

Standing in this town of endless rain 

Standing in this town of endless rain 

Standing in this town of endless rain


I got laid off then I got hired 

I got a job then I got fired 

They said they loved me like a son 

People come and people go 

And where they coming from I don't know

Me I'm off to the rodeo

November came and still the endless rain

Is falling from the sky to the river to the sea

The tide is changing rearranging things 

I hope the sands of time will forgive me of this crime

It's so insane 


And so I hanged myself from gallows borrowed

Drowned myself in pain 

Hell I'll never live to see tomorrow 

Standing in this town of endless rain 

 Standing in this town of endless rain 

Standing in this town of endless rain



Even If I Wanted To


Even if I wanted to, even if the sun refused to shine

I couldn’t walk away, I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Even when the world is cruel, when I hide

You’re a candle in the night in a window shining

On a cold October night


Just a lonely heart on a open road in a car with an old guitar 

A song came on the radio and I didn’t get too far before I said


Every day of my life, every breath that I breathe 

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Every single day of the year, I’ll thank my lucky stars

I won’t give up, no I couldn't give up even if I wanted to


Even when you’re miles away from me, even in my solitude alone with myself

I couldn’t hang it up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Even when the world is upside down and the voice in my head 

Says it’s time to go, cash it in, give it up

Ain’t no way we can save this ship has sailed away 

But no matter what it takes me


Every day of my life, every breath that I breathe

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Every single day of the year, I thank my lucky stars

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to


Even in my wildest dream, even when it feels so real

And I can’t wake up to tell you what's on my mind, the way that I feel

Ooo the way it will be, no matter how we disagree

We defied the odds when there ain’t no rules

Even a fool can see


Every day of my life, no matter what I do

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Every single day of the year, I’ll thank my lucky stars

And I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to


The summer ended with a cry

If I ever live without you

Now you know I would die

Even if I wanted to, I love you


No matter what I do

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Every single day of the year, I thank my lucky stars

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to


Every day of my life, no matter what I do 

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to

Every single day of the year, I thank my lucky stars

I won’t give up, no I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to...



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Host Bruce Hilliard has an appetite for music, “the soundtrack of our lives.” His personal journey has included opening for Rock & Roll Hall of Fame artists Heart, the Ramones and Dr. Hook. His degrees in music and journalism he says “are cool but everyday in every way, get better and better.” Interviews with everyone from young garage bands where it all begins, to seasoned veterans...all compelling. And there’s music.